I'll Still Have Me<<<General Hospital<<<Chapter 1

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 Lulu Spencer unlocked the door to the house she lived at with Johnny and Reagan, today hadn't been a good day at all. Leaning against the kitchen counter, she fought the urge to get alcohol out of the fridge. Lulu was three weeks sober and she couldn't let herself slip up and throw all of her hard work away.

 

"Hey, I didn't hear you come in. How was work?" Johnny Zacchara walked down the stairs, carrying a laundry basket.

 

'It wasn't the best, if I'm being honest." Lulu sighed, taking a hand through her blonde hair.

 

"What happened?" Johnny grabbed her hand.

 

"There's just a bunch of uppity women that work there. I have a picture of you, me and Reagan sitting on my desk and...they want to poke fun at Reagan not looking like me or being my daughter. Are we in high school again? Because I swear I'm twenty-four." Lulu fought the urge to roll her eyes.

 

"Lulu, you are her mother in every way that counts. I'm sorry, you shouldn't have to deal with that." Johnny sighed, taking her in his arms.

 

"I know I am and I am...so grateful for everything I have. I went to GH today after work." She might as well get the news out in the open.

 

'Is everything okay? I would have went with you." Johnny was concerned, he pulled back to look at her.

 

"I know, I just needed to face the music by myself. You know how you were talking about having a child of our own? Well, I don't know if that's going to be a reality." Lulu bit her lower lip.

 

"What do you mean?" Johnny asked, was she breaking up with him?

 

"Dr. Lee told me that I have a T shaped uterus and apparently you can't carry a child to term. She told me that I can correct it with the same surgery Sam had but, it's risky. I don't know if I should do it. I want to have a little baby of our own but, I'm nervous about surgery." Lulu quickly explained, Johnny immediately understood why she was upset.

 

"Lulu, you know that I love you and I want a baby but...I would never force you to do anything. I'm sorry, I know how much this hurts you. You don't have to get the surgery babe, do what's comfortable for you. We have Reagan and you are her mommy in every way that counts. We love you to the moon and back, I know you're trying to start your journalism career too...maybe we put this on hold for awhile. I want you to be happy." Johnny sighed, rubbing up and down her arms.

 

"Thank you for being so understanding, I'm on the fence about it. I don't have any complaints about the life I have with you and Reagan, we're only on our early twenties. You're right, we've got all the time in the world." Lulu lays her head on his chest, Johnny's arms enveloping around her.

 

"I love you, you're the woman for me. Things aren't going to change between us because of what Dr. Lee told you, there are always plenty of kids that need adopting and there's surrogacy. We have options, okay? Whatever you decide, I am here for it. Alright?" Johnny held her in his arms as his brown eyes gently grazed over her features.

 

"Thank you baby, that's exactly what I needed to hear. Do we have anything planned for today? I was going to grab a bite to eat with the girls tonight." Lulu smiled up at him.

 

"No babe, go and have fun. You deserve it." Johnny smiled, kissing her forehead.

 

"I'm going to go take a shower, I love you." Lulu quickly kissed him, before going upstairs to take a shower. The front door opened and Reagan Zacchara rushed into the house, followed by Samantha Cain.

 

"Hey there, sweetheart. How was your day with Aunt Sam?" Johnny smiled, picking his daughter up.

 

"So much fun!" Reagan smiled, hugging her dad.

 

"We had a very fun day at the park, didn't we?" Sam smiled at Reagan.

 

"Lulu's upstairs taking a shower, she should be ready any minute. She got some news, she really needs this night out." Johnny sighed.

 

"Those girls at that company are a piece of work, let me tell you. We're glad to do it." Sam nodded, about ten minutes later Lulu came back downstairs.

 

"Mommy! Are you leaving?" Reagan poked out her bottom lip, Lulu kneeled down to her level.

 

"I'll only be gone for a little bit, baby. Trust me, I'll always come home to you and daddy. You guys are my whole entire world. I love you both so much. Now, come give me a hug." Lulu smiled, Reagan threw her arms around Lulu's neck.